without being a knight in shining armor
In relationships, I'm one of the best
This wasn't taught to me by any figure
Will my sweetness pay off from bittersweet
I have visions to join a lady in a covenant
Many children to breed in the universe
Carry my legacy with full tradition
Faithfulness and loyalty, I love to possess
It's like, she has issues, then sources test
Oh my goodness, I get excuses and sob stories
When all I wanna do is create fine memories
I must have came into your existence, tardy
Satisfying my needs, you'll do it hardly
But, I'm suppose to put you first
Can't get cooperation for my certain hunger and thirst
Ready to take on many things, stay alive
Is a woman real about me or jive
Birds and bees, it's as if, I walked in a hive
Waiting for those stings, feelings to deprive
I aim towards having so much fun
With me, you act like a nun
Of your world, did I miss all the great shit
when your problems and dealings were legit
What is it for me to gain, benefit
Emotional cases, do I miss or hit
Did I miss all of your happy times
Do I settle for the crappy times
Did I miss the prime of you baby making
To become a father by you, are you faking
Oh, before me, you had kids left and right
I'm anxious to have some and your tubes tied tight
or you want more children, back then, wasn't bright
You were eating baby candy until our wedding night
I had to use condoms or pull out
Couldn't begin our procreation, full out
Didn't matter to me, when we'll do the unthinkable
Exchange fluids for your body to be drinkable
of the seeds inside you, I wanted to plant
You had to be difficult for this process to grant
Meanwhile, I had to keep hearing about your old pregnancies
Everyone funny to bring up in my presence, the vacancies
We monitored us laying down to ovulation
Felt as if, I was back in health education
I'm doubting myself, checking my fertility
from the mess I've been through to have birth capability
Why can't I have readily made eggs
I wanna produce infants between hot legs
I want lives to start a family of my own, no option
I'm not doing anything artificial nor adoption
Mind as well been an adult star for reproductive waste
Lives in a woman for days, mine won't paste
Random women, I was running wild
Text them to see, which one will have my child
Al, I used to go to restaurants, beaches, and dances
My last men, exes to divorces messed up your chances
My dad was never ever in my strife
I'm gonna make it difficult to be your wife
A couch potato, more of a homebody
Not into romance, no rhythm, no melody
Nothing to show for, claim you're independent
You try to justify it with a lame argument
At least, I'm a man who admits, he struggles
After the breakthrough, won't drop ball, it juggles
Been through stuff, I've had stuff, still no baggage
I'm willing to give my all, I manage
Am I only known for pieces to pick up
I'm on my guard for games to slick up
Baby, you're beautiful, I like to take you out
Nah, it becomes a match of scream and shout
If I say or do something stupid, got your attention
Contemplating to leave each other to mention
You don't get it, when I'm the concerned husband
of how you doing, how was your day from my love land
Are you okay, what can I do to help with open arms
You feel special, if it's name calling, close threat harm
Pretending you're upset, so I can fret
Getting me to say, I made a mistake with regrets
Just for the hell of it, you like ignoring me
I was homesick and everything was boring me
You move quick, when at me, you're mad
Anything else, you drag and not so glad
To do stuff, we had to wait for you to change
The whole situation was becoming strange
The last thing I wanna do is cheat
Never wanna bring this gender to defeat
Guess, I'm a target for folks to talk trash
Express myself, it's taken out of context, we clash
Females be like, "Alphonso, I'll whoop your ass!"
Know how to walk away, I got class
Say to me, "I don't have to listen, you scrawny fucker."
I'm gonna continue to treat you like a sucker
Do I need more weight to extra facial hair
to be considered serious, feel it in the air
Looked at as someone who does soft speaking
Bite my tongue and be kind, a weakling
You tell me, don't start something, won't be something
Back down, turn other cheek, do nothing
I'm the same one, you want to wipe your tears
Be strong, comfort you, when in shears
I don't fear anyone or anything, but God
What's my purpose in a woman's life, even or odd
What past guys did nor didn't do, isn't my fault
Put my troubles in a vault, sprinkled with salt
To you, I'm a cry baby, constantly whining
So quick to correct me like a child outlining
Barely, I can come home and watch television
You bitching, if I turn the channel from intermission
Please, let me know if I'm someone, you don't quite obey
If the pants I wear in the house doesn't convey
the message, I won't be remote controlled
A puppet, you dangle runarounds, not patrolled
Suddenly, you're soul searching, last minute beliefs
You wanna be righteous, lover in chief
This won't happen, that won't happen without ring finger
I'm being strung along til a fallen out lingers
What I do wrong, showed you, I'm responsible
Affectionate, loving, and caring, definitely gullible
Vulnerable to not repeat this romantic pain
Worn me out on my conscious of a strain
I'm drained from trying to make peace and sense
You're tiresome, communication is dense
Know how I feel about you, jealously intense
Can't afford to lose you at my expense
Don't understand me, as I'm generous, nice, and discreet
I have intellect that's mature and straight up street
Wow! I've never been described in that manner
Next time, I'll get a better prenuptial planner
Everybody in our business
We both should be the only witness
Everything was fine, when we were long distance
It all went down hill from that drama for instance
Won't date me, no problem, I'll get car fast
Speeding on the freeway with music on blast
Don't like it, don't care, as I'm from another state
Show myself your neck of the woods to appreciate
Why on me, you're so hard
My ideas to plans, you discard
You're excited though, as they come from others
Get an attitude to do favors for me, it bothers
I couldn't even be a proper stepfather
Secrets revealed for info to gather
You have to weigh out the pros and cons
Stress weighing on us, a ton
One thing I hate to do is beg
For you, I'll pull an elbow and leg
By opposite sex, I'm fed up with being misled
Commitment turns into the color red
Overlooking all of the bad signs
My heart becoming less benign
Admitted, I'm a wonderful man, you don't deserve
Now, I see why tension was working nerve
I want to provide for my household
Rid interference, distractions to scold
When man down, where is the trust
Behind the screens are lies and lust
All along, it's someone who has scorn
Our future didn't have a shot to be born
We're not making love no more
Souls are numb and beyond sore
I must be the added insult to injury
The hurt will not be too much for me to bury
It was okay to joke with me, keep from crying
I was willing to make an effort, steady trying
I desire this to be forever
It's as if, I'm waiting on happily after NEVER
No separation, annulment, nor divorce
Wasn't my voice, choice, nor hand to force
Sure, protect yours, I'll protect me
I'm not Booboo, the Fool to let those disrespect me
I have rage, too, as you said, no need to prove I'm tough
It's not women, maybe it's me, not convincing enough
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