Life after D.O.M.

My love was in love
About you, I was crazy
Never called you, girlfriend
You were my lady
All we discussed was tying that knot
and for us to have babies
Slowly, but surely, it became shady
For you, I crossed roads, oceans, and the sky
As Sade, I wanted to give you moon and sky
Lesson learned, people will change
when you relocate to their territory
No family or friends there to back you and worry
Later, revealed, you didn’t welcome me to your town
Uplifting you, was your cue to bring me down
Should have trusted my gut to instincts
as I felt something wasn’t right
Everything I requested, I almost had to fight
Some paranoia, but not insecure to be uptight
Wish I would have left, that very night
I guess I’m at the age
I’m not so quick to give up on someone
But, if signs present themselves, RUN
Another lesson I learned
Can’t always post personal business on social network
Some will praise and to others, you’re a jerk
Although, that’s exactly where y’all first met

Asked you about something, I was WRONG
Running ideas by you, I was WRONG
Wanting favors from you, I was WRONG
Greeted you after a day of work, I’m WRONG
Sometimes, ignored for the hell of it, WRONG
Plan something nice to do with my woman, WRONG
If I was relaxing, just being myself, WRONG
First impressions of you were you’re sweet, sexy, and strong
I’m forever writing this familiar poetic song
It’s fine, when others needed you to do the same
Didn’t treat them like me of mistakes… Lame
I put it all on myself of the blame
Why am I extending something that’s over in shame
I forgot, y’all don’t do anything bad, no fault
Y’all act like, cursing someone out is a spectacular assault
You knew I was homesick
Didn’t care, until I was in company of other chicks
My downfalls, as it seemed it were only women I’m meeting
I know now, that’s one place to go to for their greeting
You were vulnerable to talk to other men behind my back
especially as I tried to get things fully on track
Described, over and over, how you’re beautiful
You didn’t believe me, which is pitiful
 I’m pushing to live as a normal couple
Keep the relationship spicy to triple from double
It feels; it’s nothing left out here but sex and trouble
Hoaxes, games, manipulation, trickery
Bullshit, deceit, intimidation, fuckery
My loyalty will not be Slavery
I refuse to be company of misery
Yeah, I’m too nice, too
Because of it, I’m always caught in taboo

The wedding lasted longer than the marriage
Life goes on, I won’t be discouraged
I’m in agreement with this dissolution 
The world turns and I won’t seek retribution
So many people came to warn me
I should have really listened, darn me
My buttons were being pushed to alarm me
I anticipate my rage for somebody to harm me
Whole time, I’m on guard in the sunshine state
Got out the situation, safe and sound by fate
I could have gotten hurt at any rate
I’m so disappointed, but I never practice hate  
Can’t live it up with you, I move on
Back to having fun again and get my groove on
Extreme worse was coming, I had to let go
Doing things, I’m like Wanda, I’m ret to go
I’m not going to wait for you to get ready or change
if I’m supposed to be your husband, you acted strange
Short man caring for a woman’s kids, he’s fuck nigger
Would it have been different, if I were bigger 
They couldn’t even tell you what harm I was doing
Now, anything is used against me for ruining
Still want children, whether all mine or I add them
They’ll be so beautiful… beautiful, you’ll wish you had them
Didn’t wanna hear how you and another man did it
I was anxious for my chance, if God didn’t forbid it 
Sorry, I didn’t fit in your family, ready made
To make my own for yours, I wouldn’t trade
Mind as well call a spade, a spade
Black is color, this story will fade
Almost wanna say, same shit, different woman
I know my queen to be is coming
She’ll be much proud to wear my last name
Us and our seeds doing big stuff, Taylor Gang
Have to watch those who clean well at the beginning
Then, when I want to grow with them, they’re tripping
Watch those who wanna play victim
Turn my every action and word on me, verbatim 
It’s like driving and I complain about other drivers
when it could be me on the road, as the conniver
So, it means in women, I make poor choices
I must choose wiser from inner voices
I wasn’t trying to compete with your past
No comparison and contrast
I wanted to see what we could do, think fast
I’ve accepted reality, I’ll finish last
I desired to be married with offspring by 30
The process for me always turns out dirty
Had to beg and argue for a chance to reconcile
Telling me to give a good version to save your profile
You were content with being uncooperative and difficult
It all led to this cruel result
I was fed up with the criticism, nitpicking, and nagging
You was like a referee for every penalty to be flagging 
Started with you, first of the verbal abuse 
For me, you had every song, dance, and excuse
Michael Jackson told me, should’ve seen, you’re a Heartbreaker
Knew I must Xscape, as now I’m a Blue Gangsta
You were once a friend of mine and I thought it was major
I cried, after final hearing for signed divorce papers
You said, you were glad I’m almost completely out your life
So am I, to be blessed with my real true wife 

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